How I learned Astrology & am learning Human Design

I often get asked how I got into Astrology & how I went about learning it. Now that I’m learning (obsessed with) Human Design, I can try to explain.

How I am teaching myself Human Design is how I taught myself Astrology - I like to compare it to leaning an instrument. Anyone can learn how to do it. But heck y’all, when I tried to learn guitar, it didn’t come naturally to me, it was frustrating, and the amount of time and effort it would have taken to learn - I just didn’t have the desire, patience and passion to do so. So with things like Astrology, Human Design, fill in the blank, it needs to be a combo of natural ability, intuition, desire to learn, obsession/passion, & dedication to finding time to do so. But hint, hint, when you have the others, finding time is easy bc you enjoy it so much!

Many people also ask what sources I used to learn. With the way that my mind learns, unfortunately I don’t have a direct answer or a list of books I read - I just followed my curiosity down the rabbit hole in a non-linear way. I started with Vedic Astrology, which I still incorporate, before moving over to Western Astrology. (Funny how my grandmother did Western Astrology and it eventually became much more “me” then Vedic). I would post myself up in coffee shops on nights and weekends watching/pausing/ taking notes to YouTubes and studying charts of people I knew to lock in the knowledge. I learn new skills to this day, almost 4 years later, and am just as obsessed with learning as I was when I began. Which has never happened with any other hobby that I’ve picked up (as a Manifesting Generator and a Gemini Moon - I pick up A LOT of hobbies BUT that’s part of my design and I am supposed to do that!). I guess that’s when you know it’s meant to be.

Yes, there are expensive courses out there for both Astrology and Human Design (and this structure may be perfect for the way you need to learn) but I learn simply by being curious about a random part and diving deep into that, rather then a streamlined learn this, then that, type of way. Although likely a longer process, I get to understand it in my own way and relay it to clients in my own voice which in return, I hope, makes it more relatable and digestible. Hence the “modern” in my name. That, and I have so many god damn retro planets in my chart, I have to learn in a less practical way .

Although I am no expert, you guys can now add a Human Design mini reading to any of my offerings for $20 if you want to know more! Or check out @jennazoe who is an expert and who is my inspiration! I’m thinking about adding a page on my website that has all the healers/teachers/locations/products/podcasts that I am obsessed with & recommend- would y’all want that?

Later taters,


Natal chart explained - Houses

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Our birth chart is a circle that is separated into 12 sections, kind of like slices of pie. Each slice represents an area of our life - these are called our “Houses”. Each house is ruled by a zodiac sign and there are 12 of those as well.

Think of the signs as the vibe/characteristics/personality that color the houses and how you approach that area of your life. The signs are always in the same order for everyone’s chart (Aries, Taurus, Gemini, Cancer, Leo, Virgo, Libra, Scorpio, Sagittarius, Capricorn, Aquarius, Pisces) but your time of birth will dictate which sign starts your chart. The start to your chart is called your Rising Sign or Ascendant Sign. Your Rising Sign is the beginning of your 1st House which kicks off your natal birth chart wheel. The houses go counterclockwise from 1-12. So, if your rising sign is Cancer for example, then your chart will still keep the same order as I mentioned but start with Cancer (Cancer, Leo, Virgo, Libra, etc). Each sign is exactly 30 degrees long but some of our houses can be bigger or smaller then 30 degrees. Because of this, we can have a couple zodiac signs falling into one house. Even if there are a couple signs falling in a house, you always look to the sign that is at the beginning of the house (this is called the House Cusp) to see which sign “rules” that area of your life.

The planets are all in specific signs in the sky when you are born. So, once you find out your Rising Sign, you can see what house in your natal chart that each of those planets fall in. This will bring those planet’s meanings into your houses. Each planet represents a specific part of our personality so finding our what area of life (what house) they fall in will be a big part of how we use that part of our personalities.

While this post is focused on our natal charts, I have to mention that the houses are also very important for predicting events. Your natal chart never changes but the sky is always changing. So, you can take what is happening in the sky currently and line it up with your chart to see how the current sky is effecting you and where in your life (what house) you will be feeling their impacts and outcomes that can happen. These are called transits. More on those separately but this helps explain why each house has so many meanings - many of which may be strange to hear if simply interpreting our charts as our “make - up”.

Below are my quick explanations of what each house rules in our lives:

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Scout and Birdie Issue IV: Sunburnt

In this issue of the Scout & Birdie podcast I chat about combust planets in the birth chart after I read a poem that I wrote that was inspired by combust Venus in a chart. Catch me at 50:35 - 1:02 chatting about these things as well as how I got into Astrology and what inspires me about it. Enjoy!

Dark Deep Side - An astrology inspired poem turned song collab

I had so much fun collaborating on this! The 2nd issue of Scout & Birdie podcast features a compilation of fab artists who's submissions surround the theme of "Messy". I teamed up with my dear friend, Carolyn, to create a song from one of my poems.

In the podcast, link below, you'll hear about the inspiration behind this one and see how the poem evolved into a song:

A little back story on how it came to be...

Carolyn and I were not able to sit down and focus on this together until hours before the deadline -- procrastinate much? Hey, it's the artist's way, right? We were throwing around some ideas for which poem to use. We had been working on a different poem of mine that just didn't fit with the theme. We were rummaging through my poems and then all of the sudden I got stuck on this one. The second Carolyn picked up the guitar, it just came out of her. I was sitting across from her with a huge smile and silently, not to throw her off, thrusting my fist in the air, (I am a great "Hype Man", ya'll) and knew it was the one.

I am always in awe of musicians because I have zero musical talent. This is probably my one life regret -- I quickly quit piano lessons for sports when I was a kid and while I can throw a baseball better then most of my guy friends, I can't exactly entertain guests with it in my living room. I digress. So, Carolyn immediately spewed out the first and second verse (hello, talent) and said that we needed to pick a bridge and chorus. "Umm, sure, sure --what's a bridge?" I said. Ha! Seriously, not musical. I knew I loved the "climb up my ups..." part as the chorus. I at least knew the chorus was the part of the song that repeats, guys. She crafted the bridge and she was the one that found the focus of the song -- the "dark deep side" which also ended up being the title.

Some changes from poem to song...

"Deep dark side" got switched to "dark deep side" -- a small change but Carolyn sang it this way and it just seemed more captivating. The poem had the word philosophize in it (a big theme of Jupiter) but it just didn't sound pretty and it's a hard word to fit in a song. Unless you are the freaking musical unicorn, Kishi Bashi. So, we played around with that part of the song for a bit and settled on "take me for a ride" to keep up with the sexual theme of the verse and having the protagonist putting the partner in control of this part. Another change we had to make was breaking up the line "dare you to show me your secrets" into "dare you to show me, show me your secrets" for flow. Those, and a lot of added repetition of words by Carolyn that really makes it what it is.

I view this poem/song as a twisted but sexy back and forth game/challenge between two people. It is sassy AF. It was fun to write about something like this. The protagonist is a little bit of a "Mess" (theme) but is in total control of it, owns that shit and views it as one of her greatest attributes. She knows her emotions are all over the place but challenges the partner to explore the depths of them, rather then most people I know, myself included, who may hide these attributes of ourselves. It's a total woman in power piece.

I am totally in love with the song and geek out every time I hear it. Bringing words to life with music is such a high and I am glad I have musical friends because I sure as hell couldn't do it. I love collaborating with Carolyn and can't wait to see what we do next. I learned a lot from this experience and hey, maybe I can even write in bridges and choruses into poems now!

How to strengthen your relationship on the deepest level using this love kriya.

What is a Kriya? The word kriya means action. It is an action that leads to a complete manifestation, a thought into actuality, a desire to commitment. In Kundalini Yoga a kriya is a series of postures, breath, and sound that work toward a specific outcome. Practicing a kriya initiates a sequence of physical and mental changes that affect the body, mind, and spirit simultaneously. (via

I am calling this one the Love Kriya. It is a compilation of a few kriyas I've experienced in kundalini classes with a focus on the heart chakra followed by affirmations. These kriyas involve staring at a person across from you for a long period of time in silence. It has a profound way of connecting even two strangers, let alone two people who know and love each other. Most of us are familiar with the theory of staring into another person's eyes for just 4 minutes will connect them on a deeper level regardless of their relationship to each other. This can be awkward AF though, right? Yep. And I would argue that it may be even more uncomfortable, more vulnerable with the one you love - because they know you, there is no hiding behind a stranger's interpretation of you.

If you are in a relationship with someone special and want to connect on a deeper level then this is a great tool to develop a profound connection. Think of it as proactive therapy. Why wait for something to be wrong to try and connect to each other? Set the foundation while it's good! I do suggest that you make sure this is a significant person to you, not just a new fling that you don't fully know or trust yet. You will grow closer and you want to make sure this is the person you want that with. This isn't something you want to do with any ole guy or gal.

If you have been feeling disconnected from your partner and the verge of a split then this can undoubtedly save your connection. The catch is, you both have to fully give yourselves over to it and commit to taking it seriously and staying consistent. Also, when in a rut or fighting with each other, being physically close, vulnerable and staring into each other's eyes is probably the LAST thing you both want to do. BUT, if you both are willing to get uncomfortable and put your differences aside for less then 10 min a day, by the end of it you will likely find yourselves looking forward to this time. The tension will ease in your relationship and you will really see each other rather then past each other. Hopefully this grows into respect for each other, empathy and love.

Ready to try it out? I highly recommend to do the following naked-- the ultimate vulnerability. If it is just to weird, I feel y'all! This will still be very intense with or without being naked and maybe by the end you will try out the nakey-way :) Follow these steps:

  • Pick a comfortable place in a quiet room. The floor or on your bed are great spots. Make sure you will have 10 min of uninterrupted minutes. (Get down to your b-day suit if choosing to)

  • Sit with legs crossed, knees touching each other. If you find you have knee pain, don't feel like you have to sit uncomfortably the whole time -- just make sure your legs meet in some way.

  • Get a phone timer set to 5min.

  • Sit up straight and both of you reach your left arms out and place your left hands on your partner's left shoulder.

  • Raise your right arm in the air, above your head and interlock your hands with your partner's hand. Yes, this can get challenging to hold-- stick with it and stay strong. Once you fully relax into the process this will be easy and you won't even realize it.

  • One of you press start on the phone timer.

  • Hold a stare into each other's eyes for the full 5min. Do this straight faced, really try and see them, feel them, understand them. If you laugh, it's natural but jump back in to straight faced immediately. Breath deeply. You'll find that your breath syncs.

  • When the alarm goes off, (which may have felt like an eternity to newbies), immediately begin to say affirmations to each other, about each other, taking turns. Make these affirmations as specific and heartfelt as you can. Instead of "you are good at your job" say something more like "I admire your drive and passion with your work, I know you sacrifice a lot to make sure you provide for us and I appreciate it". Or instead of saying your partner is beautiful, pick out something rare about their beauty and describe it to them so they feel as beautiful as you see them. It is important to not have any expectations of your partner and their affirmations to you. Maybe one of you is better at this then the other and that's okay! Be grateful and meet them with respect. Try and do at least 3 each. Continue as long as you want.

  • You are finished! But are youuuu? You'll be surprised at how much of a turn on this can be ;) I recommend carving out more then 10min to make room for a little sexy time if it leads to it.

How did it feel? Awkward, peaceful, miserable, lovely, inspiring, make your skin crawl in disgust? Ha, all are fair and real to you. Discuss it with each other! If you felt on the awkward/miserable end then be respectful of your partners feelings and tell them gracefully. If you felt lovely and they felt the bad feels, meet their feelings with respect and let them voice them. The one feeling the discomfort is the one who needs to get in touch with themselves more, so do not think the disgust is with you, it lies in their own insecurities. You guys will get on the same page shortly! Keep at it!

If you both felt awesome, well then, HELL YEAH! You may even find that your partner started looking like you during it. This is good-- it means you are connecting with their true self and your souls were intertwined seeing each other as equals on the heart level instead of just the physical level.

The arm positions create a flow of energy between your two bodies. The right hands raised above your heads are connected the the higher frequency and your souls intertwine and move in a circle through that energy and into each other's through the left arms. You become one soul -- hence making sure this is someone you are sure you want to connect this way with.

The goal is to do this consecutively. Think of it as a juice cleans and commit to 3 days in a row to start. Maybe some of you meditate? Then think of this as meditating with your partner. There is always 10min to spare in a day. Relationships are sacrifice and this is nothing in the grand scheme of things. Also, if it could repair something you thought was destined to fail, you may be sad you didn't try it sooner. You can certainly add minutes to the 5 min and add affirmation time as well - the longer, the better! Get creative and make this unique to your relationship and hopefully it becomes something you both look forward to.

Happy love connecting to you all! Let me know how it went for you guys!